Maybe This is What You Needed to Hear
When you are so happy that you just want to laugh out loud, when you get the sudden urge to dance or jump around, when you just want to smile at everyone you see, DO IT. Express how you feel even if people are watching. Everyone gets caught up with the thought of what people think about them and that’s okay, we’re all human. But the best day of my life was the day I let go and I stopped caring what everyone else thought of me; that was the day I bloomed. I wanted to be myself so I decided to do what I felt even if it wasn’t the “normal” thing people expect and nobody can stop me now. The best compliment I have ever received was “your energy is amazing, don’t lose it, it will bring you so many opportunities.” When you decide to be yourself and let your happiness shine through you will be surprised how many negative things disappear from your life. Optimism and happiness makes negative people uncomfortable so always keep your glass half full.
The opportunities I have been given just for being who I am proves to me how letting go has benefitted my life. It seemed too surreal to me to be able to love myself as much as I do today. I never thought I would be so happy with who I am. All the happiness I have did not come from anyone or anything around me… it came from inside of me. If you give yourself the chance to prove how strong you are within, nothing will ever get in your way. I have come such a long way since I started thinking for me; I have a new job which has gotten me out into the community talking to new people, explaining Plan A’s vision and our impact, and learning so many new things which has only led to more amazing opportunities. I have also made so many new friends in the process. I go to the gym and I overall have a new appreciation for who I am inside and out. I have someone who adores me for exactly who I am–high energy and all. People want to know me, they want to talk to me, they want to work with me and have me on their team. This all happened because I started living for me.
It sounds so weird, but all of these outside opportunities came from being selfish and putting myself first. When I started to do the things that made me happy and I stopped worrying about what everyone else would think about it, I became a person I am so proud of. Everyone reading may think I have had it easy, but I have gone through my own personal battles that, by looking at me, you would likely never know. I was diagnosed with depression, severe anxiety, I used to self harm, I had an eating disorder, I loved someone for them to only break me when I was already broken, I’ve gone through sickness, surgery and I have lost so many people I thought I would have forever. I had lost hope in myself and everyone around me. That was just some of the problem: I thought my happiness depended on things and people around me. It doesn’t, it never did. The snow may be deeper and harder for me to get through compared to others, but the one thing I never did was give up. Do things for yourself, take days for yourself, and once you love yourself you will realize how much more love you have to give to the right people. Nothing feels better than being the source of another person’s happiness but this all starts from loving yourself first.
Look where I am. I am the happiest person I NEVER thought I could be. I did not think I was going to get here because I didn’t know where “here” was. I wanted to write something that people could relate to, genuinely. So many people feel things so deeply, and most still will never talk about it, so I am doing this for all of us. If anyone needed a sign… this is your sign: today is the day, it is all about you. I wanted to lift people up and to make them realize no matter how deep the snow is, just keep going. The places you could end up are better than you could ever imagine. Everything you need is always within you. All you have to do is find it. It doesn’t matter how long that takes…all that matters is that you enjoy your journey.